It’s fathers’ day. You don’t really have to buy expensive things. Sometimes the best things in life are free. Sometimes feelings are better left unsaid. Sometimes eyes can tell more that what we say. Sometimes, we run short of words, but then our smiles or hugs convey what we really mean. Sometimes, we seek high falutin words when all we want to say are words like “simple, fair, moderate.” Are there superfluous gobbledygooks for those words?). Feelings are sometimes like that. Sometimes we’ve got to send them in our own special and unique ways. Why am I saying this? It’s what I just did to greet my father today!
My father and I have a unique bond. It cannot be severed by distance; it lingers even when I’m quite an adult myself.
You see, it was my father who took care of me when I was a baby. My mother breastfed me, and I’m also close to my mother but it was my father who lulled me to sleep, watched me while I was sleeping, then accompanied and fetched me from school afterwards when I was attending primary school. That’s until I entered grade IV.
Basically, he was my primary caregiver. He lost his job even before they had me (vehicular accident caused his hearing loss so he cannot work further as a seaman). He was the housebound, I mean house husband.
After high school, I was supposed to study in UP Diliman, to take up Journalism. My father objected of it. He didn’t want me to go far. So I enrolled in the closest UP campus instead, which is in Davao City. Taking up Computer Science is not easy especially is you’re not naturally adept with mathematics and abstract reasoning, so it was quite a struggle in the beginning. I cross enrolled for one summer in UP Los Baños to see if I can handle if I transferred there. But barely two weeks in Laguna, I was already very homesick and I wanted to go home right away. My mother insisted that I stay on, but I begged off. I wouldn’t want to live that lonely. I wanted to go home because of my father. He seems so lonely without me at home.
I guess I am quite speculating here. My father never said so. He’s like most men I think. He’s not very expressive. But when I arrive home early from school (that’s 50 km away from where we live and 2 hours travel time), he doesn’t drink much wine. But if I sleep over somewhere or arrive home late, especially if he’s nursing an angst against my mother, he drinks till he’s drunk. Bad thing about it is: drunkenness and bad temper don’t mix well. If he’s drunk, he throws violent tantrums, we sometimes think he’s a monster. But I’m not writing this to discredit my father, in fairness, he’s quite a good man. He still gives me money even if I have work myself. He didn’t object anybody who courted me in the past. He received them quite nicely at home. He’s doing his laundry by himself and he can be sent to do errands anytime of the day except beyond 6 pm.
I think, no father is perfect. Each one has a flaw. But since they are fathers we have high expectations of their behavior. We think they should behave at all times, they shouldn’t make mistakes. But, we also get prodigal at times, sometimes we choose to disobey but they still love us anyway. They are also human, limited, unreasonable sometimes, everything that we are yet a little different.
What I am trying to say really is, let’s love them just as they are!
Ang sabi nila, malagim daw ang Biyernes lalo la kung ika-13.
They say, bad spirits roam freely during this date. And it’s bad luck?
Not a believer though. But I think there are really spirits in this world, principalities of darknes, we refer to them.
Anyway, Diyos ko, bantayin niyo po ako ngayong araw.
hehe.
Just to break the monotony of the blog, to make it a little colorful, I’m posting this test result. I don’t necessary believe it though. By the way, I think my favorite color is green. Runners up are brown, blue and OK pink.
1. What is the best nickname that you ever had?
*** i’m not very particular with names
2. Do you think suicide is the best way?
*** who says it is?3. Rate your social life from scale 1 to 10.
*** 7.5
4. Are you in love with someone at the moment?
*** you guess…
5. Are you missing someone at the moment?
*** not really
6. Would you die for the one you love?
*** if situation calls for it, i will think about it (hehe)
7. Do you think love hurts?
*** no. I think it’s people who hurt us
8. What’s the best thing about love at first sight?
*** I’m not a believer
9. What’s the worst thing about love?
*** love is perfect. it’s the people who make the difference. It’s because we’re imperfect that we cannot love perfectly (ano daw?! LOL)
10. Will you wait for someone you love?
*** maybe
11. What song best describes your love life at this second?
*** can’t imagine me without you (blush)
13. Do you wanna get married?
*** I do!
14. Have you talked to the person you love on the phone?
*** yep
15. Do you keep memories or try to forget them?
*** recall them only when needed
16. Is love always on your side or the opposite way?
*** what a weird question
17. Do you have a gay/lesbian/bisexual friend?
*** yeah! a lot
18. Are you sick of love?
*** why am i answering this questionnaire (i’m getting stupid)
19. What are 5 things your looking forward to?
*** new work!
*** payday!
*** tomorrow
20. Are you sick of questions on love?
*** sometimes, especially if the questions are silly
21. What are you going to do tomorrow?
*** go to church
22. What do u want so badly right now?
*** code some program counts, right?
23. Do you think money is everything?
*** of course not, but it’s definitely something
24. What song are you listening right now?
*** nothing
25. What’s the song, you last sang?
*** nada
26. How much do you love music?
*** only when it’s played softly… I love all genre except hard rock and metal but it shouldn’t hurt my ears. I’m moderately deaf on left ear because of noise pollution. I don’t want to aggrevate that
27. Do you play an instrument?
*** does tambourine count? (hehe) yeah, xylophone and a just a little knowledge on guitar and piano (not skill)
28. Have you written your own song?
*** i write poems at times but i don’t know how to put lyrics and melody together
29. What movie did you last watch?
*** kung fu panda! it’s so cute… it’s outragiously hilarious… you should watch, if I were you
30. What turns you on from the opposite sex?
*** good manners and right conduct (nyahahaha)
31. Do you believe in forever?
*** yeah, I believe in God, heaven and hell, earth is a temporary residence. there is a place where we really are ‘home’
32. How long have you been breathing?
*** since birth of course, stupid question btw
33. What was your first thought this morning?
*** can’t remember
34. Do you actually believe in perfection?
*** i believe in perfection but I appreciate flaws, defects, errors and mistakes more . If everything were perfect, it would be an entirely different world, i coudn’t imagive it
35. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?
*** both is OK
